the fingers of your thoughts are molding your face ceaselessly

aeterna. says:
whatcha doing in your holidays?

whipermr5 <4S228> says:
today, tomorrow and wednesday i'm attending a workshop on computer security at defence science organisation

OMG MY BROTHER IS LIKE SUPER COOL LA

you know what I miss? small things. small detailed things, like mama buying me new pajamas for chinese new year and cutting me strawberries and putting them in a small orange bowl with a fork and always knowing exactly when I want to eat hokkien mee or the red jelly from the hawker center. hearing papa come home and his keys turning in the gate and setting down his laptop bag. John sneezing loudly and blowing his nose exaggeratedly haha. :(

okay...despite me being all :/ :/ :/ about mama's freaking out over me falling sick and being all how come you don't know how to take care of yourself, I still think it's really really sweet that she called my handphone all the way from singapore at 7am to ask how I was doing and tell me to take strepsils and biogesic paracetemol. :) :) :)

I miss Papa. and John. and Mama. so much so much so much. (sound of heart breaking here) I'm so horrible to them but they love me so much and I do love them terribly terribly terribly too. big mistake to read papa's email and read their birthday card to me cos now I'm just incapacitated with missing and homesickness. I can't wait to get back to Singapore even if it's just for three weeks before another six months. I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait. I want to go home. I don't want to grow up and be on my own here what am I doing here?! why didn't I just go to NUS arts I'm sure I'd have done fine and I wouldn't be so depressed like I am now here. this is undoubtedly the worst time of my life. ever. I have never felt so alone. kay I am going to read my history readings or something now because I don't want to continue to spend the rest of the night crying

I would just like to say that I love my room very much cos it's so cosy and I love having my own space, and also that I have the most kickass pinboard ever that I am immensely proud of. :D

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my room WITH the pinboard up:



squee yay. I am so very pleased also because I had a nice extended introduction conversation with a same-floor neighbour just now (YAY PEOPLE) and am now in my room drinking hot mushroom soup listening to nice music. :) :) :) I also manage to skype home at least once a day and internet-sms back to Singapore so I am slowly but surely learning to cope with my homesickness and accepting it as part of life? hurrah.

I want to start a blog about life in london with all the little details and thoughts, but am being stalled because the perfect username I carefully thought up and considered has been taken ):

my family really is wonderful I am so blessed and undeserving. :X my father in particular. it was my birthday yesterday right, and I was very afraid that I would be so depressed because there wasn't really anyone around I knew well enough other than my mom etc, but I went to greenwich yesterday to visit my mom's friend and her husband and they surprised me with cake!! because my dad smsed over to them to ask them to get me cake because it was my birthday. and when I came onto skype in the morning my dad and my brother were at hand to sing me happy birthday across continents with a happy birthday banner-thingy in the background. it actually did make me tear but I think I didn't show it? and this is after they sent me like about four offline msn messages put together saying happy birthday when it turned midnight there but I was offline. and my mom got me stuff and the adorablest card ever. so really I am very very very x 3947398478234 blessed -overwhelmed- aiyah with family like that how not to be homesick!

I swear, the canteen in RJ is now like a veritable gambling den. People are playing cards left right center up down everywhere you look there are cards cards cards and ha, sorry, I need to rant - it is seriously getting on my nerves. Okay yeah bridge is fun, whatever, whatever. Bridge everywhere is just annoying. Aimed at no one in particular. I think.

I went for reunion lunch at my grandparents' place - well. It's kind of a once-a-year experience: three generations (and a new unborn fourth!!) squashed in a three-room flat the exact size and layout of Sally's, haha. Thus getting food entails much squeezing and slinking around. :D The stuffiness and crowdedness gave me a small headache, though. :/ Hopefully tomorrow will be better, although all logic points to it being worse than today.

Did I mention the unborn fourth? Hehe. My cousin's wife is pregnant and I had no idea until I stepped into the flat and saw her today. That's quite cool, and I have no way of putting down in words why. My cousin is about a decade older than me, I think - and he wants to name his son (son! This side of the family has a LOT of males, as compared to my mom's side having a LOT of females) Athrun. ATHRUN. I started laughing when my dad told me afterwards because man! That's like naming your kid Naruto. Or Sasuke. Yeah, more like Sasuke. Can you imagine him introducing himself on messageboards? I don't think people will believe the poor kid, haha.

Is anyone going for the SSO concert on 10 Feb? I kind of want to go. It does sound pretty good. (Emm?)

Went out with my family to watch Batman Begins today - I think I squee-ed softly at the first mention of "Scarecrow" and again at the Joker mention. -is a sucker for references like that- It is immensely ironic and amusing to watch Liam Neeson in black Sithly garb with a katana (I LOVE katanas) train someone, tell him to make others fear him and to be mindful of his surroundings.

Also, when he closed his eyes before the train crashed? Priceless Jedi moment. Haha.

I NEVER KNEW NARUTO ROLEPLAYING GAMES COULD BE SO FUN. I think Kabuto just made it to my (current) favouritest characters in Naruto.

I have a brigade training camp tomorrow, ending Saturday noon. Not a good time to have a camp - the worse, in fact, because we all know the last week is crucial for finishing up work. (Or starting working. headdesk.) But oh well >< Um. It'll work out.

CAN I PLEASE FIND OUT HOW TO DO THE DARNED DNA PACKAGING MODEL NOW? I HONESTLY HAVE NO. IDEA. AT. ALL.

I remember a fanfic in which Kabuto very calmly twisting the arm of a Sound woman under him because she was starting to show dissension towards Orochimaru, and telling her he was Orochimaru's red right hand. I LOVE THAT MOMENT. Only I can't find the fic anymore. Jenny/anyone have you read this do you have any idea?